I am internally and externally prone to freaking out.
I used to hear voices - of my friends all talking about me in the other room.
Now I just smoke too many fags, drink too much wine and develop an array of auto-immune disorders. I used to go swimming once a week but I'm allergic to chlorine and developed a 9-week eye infection/exploding thing as a result. But when I was doing it it really relaxed me. The best things I've found are a) driving b) swimming in the sea c) cooking But none of them are truly sustainable, i.e. the effects don't last long enough to change my day-to-day stressfest. Hence me thinking about meditation and such. Even though I'm a cynical old bag. An unfit cynical old bag. However, yesterday's conversation really cheered me up! Felt very relaxed! what is happening? eek!
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Date: 2006-01-04 03:10 am (UTC)I used to hear voices - of my friends all talking about me in the other room.
Now I just smoke too many fags, drink too much wine and develop an array of auto-immune disorders.
I used to go swimming once a week but I'm allergic to chlorine and developed a 9-week eye infection/exploding thing as a result. But when I was doing it it really relaxed me. The best things I've found are
a) driving
b) swimming in the sea
c) cooking
But none of them are truly sustainable, i.e. the effects don't last long enough to change my day-to-day stressfest. Hence me thinking about meditation and such. Even though I'm a cynical old bag. An unfit cynical old bag. However, yesterday's conversation really cheered me up! Felt very relaxed! what is happening? eek!